Oh my anxious mommy heart.Thursday, June 11, 2015
It's hard to describe the feeling you get when you realize how much your children have changed your life. The things that are different are immense, vast and so far reaching that you don't really recognize your former self. Who was that person? Was that really me? Something happens that changes you so deeply. It's terrifying and I've heard that feeling never goes away. It lessens a little I think as your children grow into adults and gain their independence, but I see myself as that mother preparing for an empty nest and aching for them to be close.
I know my kids are small and my feelings will probably change as I have to let go a little more and a little more over the years. They will go to school, to friends homes, on school trips, oh man I'm not looking forward to field trip bus rides. See ,there I go again, worrying about something that isn't even happening.
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for WELFARE and not for evil, to give you a FUTURE and a HOPE. Jeremiah 29:11
I tell myself often that no matter how much I fight it, I am not in control. God is good, all the time, he provides our guidance and hope for the future, otherwise, what's the point right? So, maybe while I'm praying for them, I need to begin to pray for myself. For my anxieties to be lessened and my heart to speak louder than my brain! Shut up brain. You know nothing of faith.
Tell me I am not alone?