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on the weekend.

Tuesday, May 07, 2013

 on the weekend I try hard to take a little time to just be. Just be with my family, my son, myself. Honestly though, that's really hard for me. To just be means something isn't getting done. The house is a mess, we have about 50 million projects to complete, I still haven't hung up my clean laundry, I could be editing, uploading, taking pictures of clothes, the list goes on and on. That doesn't even scratch the surface of the never ending list in my head.

I feel like there is never enough time and that makes me anxious, moody, and disappointed in myself. I am a yes person, always. It really is a problem. When people ask me to do something, I say yes, because I genuinely WANT to do and have every experience I could possibly have. I want to be the one that helps others and spends time doing and not just dreaming about doing. I also realize that sometimes I just need to not do anything.



I wrote in jonah's 18 month update that he has started telling us to "sit down!" and that's just what happened in the picture above with the blocks. Otherwise, I would have still be in the other room DOING something that I felt needed to get done, but instead I sat with my little one and stacked blocks. thank you God for the reminder.


 Then, as Sunday evening rolls around and the list starts ticking again with the things to do and the time starts dwindling down, I have to remind myself, again, to be in the moment. Just enjoy this night, don't rush off too quickly, stay, play, watch and just be.


Finding my balance is hard in this season of my life. Just doing, getting done and just enjoying my life are in a constant battle. Time moves too fast, but at least I have this moment and that one burned into my brain. When all my time has passed, I won't regret not cleaning my room or hanging up my clothes, I'll regret not using my time in the most important ways.



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  1. I identify with you completely. It's the hardest thing about being a working mom. The time that you have to play and get things done at home happens to be the same, and it requires a lot of sacrifice of either one or the other. I've had so many reminders recently to treasure these baby days, so my housework has fallen to the side for a time.

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  2. Great post. I have a hard time with this too. I'm sure most parents do. Its tough to find that balance, but so important to cherish these precious moments while our children are small. Time goes by so quickly and I want to look back and know I spent it making beautiful memories with my children, not necessarily keeping a super clean house. :-)

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