Jonah is One! (Part 1) - Behind the Camera and Dreaming

Jonah is One! (Part 1)

Tuesday, October 23, 2012


I've started writing this many times, but just haven't managed to finish a whole post. Maybe I'm avoiding it, or maybe I'm just a little lazy.

I always want to be a forward-looking person - make the world better, hope for the future type thing - but today I'm just so nostalgic for the past it almost hurts.

A year has passed and I still have so many questions about this new life God has given me (after baby). I only dimly remember the old one ( before baby) so it really isn't about being a new mother.

I think I have a longing for more, always. I am not content. It just isn't in my nature. I want to do more, make more memories, stay home more, play more, sleep more, cuddle more, pray more, learn more...

I ask myself did I let too many days go by when he was still tiny without really treasuring the moments? Did I soak up every minute with him? Did I take a picture of him doing this or that? Did I write it down?

yes. no. probably. probably not.

Sometimes I long for this fantasy do-over, but who knows really if I'd actually DO anything different.


This past year has been filled with so many memories, experiences, firsts, lasts, celebrations, giggles, smiles, tears, trials, failures, and successes. Most of all it has been filled with a lot of love.

It's amazing how much room in your heart one tiny person can take up.

Not just my heart. This boy is surrounded by people who love him. really love him. It's kind of amazing how that happens.

He gives it back too. In a big way. 



Looking at these pictures I took on his birthday, I think I'm getting a little glimpse into our future. In one moment I see maturity beyond just one year and in others I can still see my little chubby baby that is hanging on to infancy just a little longer.

His first tooth. the sweet smile. his wispy baby hair that I guess I'll have to consider cutting.

In another post (because I have way too many pictures to share) I'll  go into detail about all the ways he is amazing right now. So that when I'm nostalgic I can look back and see just who he was at this one year mark.

For now I'm just going to stare at him a little more and think about all the amazing ways I can show him the love he's shown me in year two.

xo
Stephanie

jonah's shirt was designed and handmade by Courtney Powell
pants Kelly's Kids (via consignment)

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7 comments

  1. He too cute! I think back on mine being little like that and wonder the same things. Now with a grandson, and another baby on the way I sure don't want to miss any time with them.

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  2. This is so cute! Wonderful post!

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  3. It's amazing how they change and grow in year one, but you wait and see what happens this next year, it will amaze you.

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  4. Oh HAPPY BIRTHDAY to him!!! It does go by quickly & it's easy to question how you did things along the way. Trust in yourself & cherish the moments while you have them.

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  5. My oldest is six now. And he has three younger siblings. I thought ver similar things when he was young. But the good news is I still have the same thoughts every year. For every kid.

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  6. SO very cute! Happy Happy Birthday, Little One!!

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  7. I absolutely get this post! You are such a good momma! Happy First Birthday to your boy!! xo

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